//Verbs&Nouns·

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//passed glory·

Have you ever been in spaces yet not noticed?
ever been there committed but nothing seen?

I burn my flesh daily to warm the cold relations
and still none appreciates my tries for them

The life I lead not what I assured to myself
all for sacrifices that none cares to recognise

Stood many scorching suns to shield others
but today not even remembered for what I do

Tried ignoring my pain but couldn't bear its strum
how I used to matter ran dry with my status fall

My shreds of value planted seeds to their emergence
and now my strength depleted for them to rise

It's true that day of shine comes and goes
only to leave behind traces of glory passed...dp

//use me not·

Today they gave me decency
sensed it the day they visited
Ones like me are not theirs
but only useful for their endorsement,

Tomorrow you will be done
and I will be back to my normal
dirty and overlooked as always

my leader cares less about me,

Yesterday played me same way

got me bath for your good image

The world praised you and vanished

and now look where we are again,

What am actually I to you my leader?

what have I done to deserve this?

My tears matters not it's so shaming

and please, nothing as I am use me not...dp 

  

//failed faith·

While seasons fall for a reason
And souls die for a tailored cause
Always but a good feeling to dream
your dramatized starry end goal,

Time in cracks none caring about
All patting you for the results seen
All scars of yesterday overlooked
because success now your resident,

Uh huh ah, life you decide
uh huh ah, only lots to unfold
Failed faith, takes 1 to believe
failed faith, only you know how,

What you believed in still is now
Just that dressed all better shined
Shame how foam was sold before
same craft a wrong forced result,

Wonder who gave you the truth
To know how to revive hopes
Mystery of cunning I endorse
yet hate love as skill to heal all,

Uh huh ah, life you decide
uh huh ah, only lots to unfold
Failed faith, takes 1 to believe
failed faith, only you know how...dp

//In title·

If tomorrow says no I'll still say yes

Because life begins at birth not 40,

The same peanut butter you frown upon today

A nature's yesterday best of mineral to your care,

How you bless less a curse life gives

How you reason with flush an excuse,

Drain my emotions and heave pain stratum

Things you do a damage to my spirit,

Known no happyness with you beside

Nearness never been closeness it's true,

Looked right and left a sad message

Time digging decal moments wished,

Ready to cut chasing shadows of you

Now clear us a pipe dream to wake from...dp

//Same·

If hate is like a stalk sweet to them
what's a helpless sole to do to them
If pain on another is by their purpose
then who am I to teach a thing to them,

What am I expected to call you then
after how you keep treating my same
What wrong have we done to deserve you
your same not the kind wished for us,

To think we have you in co-existence 
is a wound that'll never get to heal
Hearing your voice a disruption to my joy
not knowing how to unsee your same,

Wonder why your same belittles mine
is it because of the tissue that cover us
If not, then I'm worried what it is to be
that gives you the right for this conduct,

Maybe today is the day I will get to know
what informs the cheapness of our lives
Maybe I'll live a better man to leave you
and hopefully peace will wear my soul...dp  

//Me·

The moment you said yes to me
The day I saw life change before me
Never thought you'd be that for me
a lover, a friend, and a leader of mine,

The way you look into my eyes
Someway gives assurance of love
How you hold my hand says it all
my life with you a forever in time,

To me it's a treasure having you
To be with me hope it's joy to you
Now and forever stay true to you
love that I feel worth more than dime,

You, the reason I'm free to be me
You, the one I'll fight to death for keeps
You, the mate my soul been yearning for
my heart my all will forever be yours...dp


 //See my type?·

The end of day signature is near
above all seem to reign harmony
Life on a Sunday an easy fun dear
after all, it's all bearing testimony,

The cold of night a fight to stop
as people of the light say it's a lie
Cries of wolves mimicking a snob
terror knocking on doors in tie,

What do you say when you see my type?
how do you know what to say of my life?

Heads of argument a lip mission
staying indoors same as prison feel
Hyped by propositions of tension
this era writing own history I deal,

Bar the dry of years between harvests
happied that dark of pain came to pass
The glow of hope a relief to break tests
fashioned agape a lead common to mass,

What do you say when you see my type?
how do you know what to say of my life?

Where my faith is placed a mystery
which denomination it suits a till
Aims of humanity a cut above tapestry
why I'm here a secret open to fill,

This curiosity a height of my panache
setting no level anywhere but realistic
Fights we living in a tug of pate budge
sealing cracks of glory found altruistic,

What do you say when you see my type?
how do you know what to say of my life?...dp

//All not said·

Not perfect they said but me said not
happiness to my day a way fall away
life on the moon better than on earth,

Used to making false statements true
case in thought a smile union of jabs
things them say putting plot to clear,

We heard none utter right before we left
time on title a loss call to reign resolved
days of sanity a stay away from activity,

Him placed her hand on his forehead
ways of the heart an art only he form
glad never said a loader words to that,

True promise given to the poor hungried
last wrong we point correct is feed deck
low volume for so high traffic of public,

Deeds lot not signed up for with pride
forgiveness a hope we must pray for
good thing bad as truth reveal in sight,

All not said to be heard as events drop
all that's been done tried for you family
all not heard, said while me was alone...dp 

//This year·

Another end to another short run in long
Tears flowed ran never dry of pain and joy
Who we are a residue of circumstances
Love gained and lost same for hate mass
Been down but in from outside realities
How life reasons lately can't hope to cope
Why we keep on, an answer to venture
Twelve runs we had and still old a new,

Can one conquer this thing called a year
It keeps taking and giving in random order
Its visits into our lives leaving emotions
Yeah, those up working to pin us down
How with every start we chant for better
Soft life a distant future in shifting mirage
This coming year piling aspirations again
Praying this time lady luck finally accept,

This year can pass for it had non for me
Treasures hidden hopefully to be revealed
This coming year a lash to bad wishers
Change my way a mountain to block evil
Luck I'm creating now a solid build up
Nothing my way will upset my assertion
Hallowed be they opportunity written me
This time it's my turn, so pass this year...dp

//Don't mask my pain·

Our world was as we known it since

now came you with a disruptive force
Day became a borrowed time to grace
nothing from then made sense to ace
right was left to consent to death race,

Young and old treated to same pause
life with freedom taken in that course
None been ready to hang on their cross
how quick it came a blind sight of cause
only left to wish it away as I count my loss,

A joke we are to them it's starting to show
day to day picking a new word of flow
Silly is being powerless in their hard blow
cries of distress to them a sweet bellow
new order is fear of numbers to even brow,

Don't mask my pain with your false promise
tiring is your endless syllogistic premise
Grave tolls too real yet no word on demise
love put to task over hate pressed in lies
as fear grappled families to cut ties...dp

//Your life my life just life·

Never had I looked at you with the same eye you do me

Never had you a day heard me say bad about you
But why are you the way to my small to your big life
Please don't hate me for being not what you want me be,

For it's your life, and you live it however you feel like live it
And with my life, I expect the same to be case as in yours
It's just life, so please don't make it seem unbearable for me
'Cos in life, we live to dream and tell by living our dreams, ho oh oh oh /x2

Day by day I live to nurse the harm your words do to me
Heaven forbid my thoughts of you no more same to then
Not hate but bitter acts I have inside to fight you for me
How you take no longer my worry for how you sell this pen,

For it's your life, and you live it however you feel like live it
And with my life, I expect the same to be case as in yours
It's just life, so please don't make it seem unbearable for me
'Cos in life, we live to dream and tell by living our dreams, ho oh oh oh /x2

Said I care but what you became a stolen promise to me
Said I fear and now sailing alone the worse you've become
Be what you be and let me be what I'm not for your high
My truth my freedom I live, so let me live the way I am,

For it's your life, and you live it however you feel like live it
And with my life, I expect the same to be case as in yours
It's just life, so please don't make it seem unbearable for me
'Cos in life, we live to dream and tell by living our dreams, ho oh oh oh /x2

Your life my life just life
In my life
Be big and live it for you
It's yours to live /x2

For it's your life, and you live it however you feel like live it
And with my life, I expect the same to be case as in yours
It's just life, so please don't make it seem unbearable for me
'Cos in life, we live to dream and tell by living our dreams, ho oh oh oh /x2...dp

//Your times·
Balloons filling the wall with ribbons
Confetti colouring the sky rainbowed
This day I will never love to forget,

Thinking of the days of black down
Fearlessly going forth from the lead
My respect for you will never go dim,

The fires you've started borne good
Today looking at each as one nation
Though united not a state of current,

Seeing you laugh saying it's all better
The dark side you've walked grew us
Truth we know none can erase never,

In your footsteps comes us after you
Your path a mono track leading forth
Thank you for the bravery over the years,

Let them lie not to you about your time
This era still influential to the upcoming
A pillar like you a wish for our times...dp

//The blaze·

The time of getting out was no more

Readiness has never been a part of us
How you gracefully exited a good move
The blaze was too strong for one to stop,

My world apart yours I can't imagine 
Me sans you would've been not so bold
Every scream brought fear of your loss
Felt heavy on my light spirit I won't lie,

A house a structure we can always have
You gutted beyond recognition a no again
Happy you still here by my side as one
A testimony that we're stronger than fire...dp
 

//In search for glory·

Your question earlier today rang a bell

Said to me you're now getting there
Slowly picking up all the required tools
To reinforce your total completeness,

How you grace the vision none does
Pays to be you in know of your self
Watching your elegance in its element
Always leaves me in a state of bless,

In just the time we got to binds of each
Never heard I of bad but good you say
So pleasing to mate such a soled rarity
Finally my soul housed in a pure spirit,

Many may not be willing to go there sure
But the good it feels quench one's thirst
My whole no longer craving for anything
Since I got you in my pallet of living dreams,

Used to hear about living your life in full
Today am one raising my hand as an other
And please switch never your light on us
'Coz beside you I'm where I find my true self...dp

//Power sage·

Lost my dials to find pretty paper

out of touch thrown my cut for rakes
piecing equity stakes at C-suite gapers,

Dark corners of corporate policies
only co-operative narks playing it same
making the game an interesting atrocity,

Lost my kick in backs of transactions

out of love for money greed peaks

leaving feint margins printed in captions,

Mark words of wisdom in oddities

solely storming barks of the tamed lame

taking my power sage over to your city...dp

//That's when I was·

Thought I heard your sweet voice

Off bed out I ran to see if it's you
But then it suddenly hit it just can't
How I keep spinning on that memory
For that's when I was happy with you,

Night and day can't catch a flame
All that smoke saying I belong to you
Whenever I think of what we had here
Making me gel in harmony with love
'Cause that's when I was free with you,

Why something so good sadly painful
None to this day had a better way to it
Sending me far yet seated in one place
This thing called love a caging freedom
Thinking that's when I was spaced in you,

Is it me or you caring less what they say
Happiness left in the calling of your name
With all my heart wishing for you back
Rekindle under the moonlight once again
As that's when I was deeply found in you,

Every night I create a scene for my sleep
Sweet nothings to last me a whole dream
Crazy to ear but easy for I to be in it
Falling once more every bubble released
Sure that's when I was in love with you...dp

//If only you knew·

Look at my tower for your safety

How you think of me not the way
If only you knew me you wouldn't,

Come to me for shelter if outside
Your crush not my pleasure at all
If only you knew how I cared for you,

Your failure to me a sign you tried
Bother not what they say about it
If only you knew your win is within,

How for granted they take you I won't
What they don't get from you I do
If only you knew how much you matter,

Your talk of me a less from me
Sorry the type you are not one
If only you knew how to talk you more,

The closest you feel to my shadow
The farthest I reach to my eclipse
If only you knew how I see through it,

Day of reveal soonest hope you see
I know my ways aren't the best, but
If only you knew who I am to you...dp

//With you·

The joy is my pain of our struggle
How the build up process is going
The deputy of our vision taking shape
How its glimpse of life now showing up,

Many still seeing nothing in pass
Just that happiness is locked in
Many times thanking God for you
Just that it makes not enough now,

When I look at how you guiding us
Won't forget your hand into our future
When I think of all that you're doing
Won't stop priding myself over you,

Who you are to me they know not
But that matters not as you know but
Who you've been to others I respect
But sadly we just don't thank you enough,

You are life support symbolized for me
What you do none does ever better
You are my too much to others' nothing
What they don't get fulfills me amore,

My dream in the hands that molds it
My life finally what I envisioned ago
Our destiny taking shape because of you
Our gratitude filling no cup we know,

We are dramatically awash with gratefulness
So calming is assurance of your presence
We are becoming our future thanks to you
So special the feeling of being with you...dp

 

//Grave path·

Draw that card from your pocket

Swipe your future to add of days
More time a luxury to the have not
As is same to the face of decades,

Many a times we mint sinned glory
In conclusion capacitate emotion
Mirror the aspiration of pure merge
As was the case since the beginning,

Prode your capital eye with pride
Spin the bought soul with new spirit
Feign regret in enticing word orgy
Play the bold anthem from the top,

No respect to furnish the weak amore
Cast them in tossed out fantasies
For they belong not in heart's content
In comfort rile the son of your lost soil,

Step on site aside from the grave path
Ruin no more the gravitational memoirs
Life long foregone, an inherent takeover
Blow my own horn as I lay in your bed,

Smell the humid, taste the thanks I give
Reek of conquer we both championed
Roll out the lead of change we wanted
Slide the conduit into your host world,

The points claimed in every of my swipes
Livens no tokens to decorate your legacy
Finding no joy in what fate chose for us
Happy tomorrow you'll know me still...dp

//Gains of pain·

Don't tell me about the picture

Say what's of the frame idea
If only you stop objectifying pain
And see it for what it's felt as,

Your expression an experience
Hidden from the truth of reality
Talk it out what it really is about
Not sugarcoat what they project,

Aim direct to what they show feel
Pain fun to you the proud oppressor
But also a scar on the tissue of pride
How you do it till now still a mystery,

Power abused an abuse on abuser
Sad that its face not same to both
The effect of loss a true story to both
Something that both know it not same,

Saying something not shame play out
Doing anything about it nothing either
What'd be loud will be the action after
But, enough of glorifying your worst,

Pain kills a lot, pain awakes the spirit
Go on ignoring the hope in their eyes
Fear of future is what's in your minds
And that alone, true gains of pain...dp

//Yahweh·

Right where you belong, I'm below

The spirit you filled in me sacred

Left in me is true unconditional love
Overflowing with desire for your praise

Deep down in my heart I do know 
Your love knows no hate to give

High above is your mercy ranking
Trending for all the holy purposes

With me on your shoulder I'm done
The reason I'm now complete is you

Without you I wouldn't be this far
All I am marked by your lamb's blood

Greater be the living Trinity I sing for
Me myself and I forever in you Yahweh...dp

//Not·

What's deep in you not deep in me

Where you feel free not same for me

The steps I take shan't be followed
The memories I paint a regret sadly
My life not a white paper to discuss
Your message near me a clear text,

The tests I wrote not for graduation
The rest of the waters I left are yours
You for me not trying to be me in you
My time with you a virtual skipping rope,

When you go out not saying I too am
Who makes you happy not making me

That day will come but you won't go
I control the flooding and the influx
My voice shan't be recognized then
Your thoughts to be the choice of none,

Are those wings ready for me or us?
Aren't you tired of my worn out soul?
Your tenacity a lesson I'll take forth
But my time with you is over both know,

How you got it not the way I got it
Why I'm called not why you'll be

Goodbye my spirit, a bye to my soul
Been long as one, now becoming two
Light you were, heavy in dark your bright
Oracular article I now am, an artifact sold,

Alone life will be a different beast
Alone time will seem a new course
My signature slowly wiped off mind
Your path a clear trek to chart solely,

To soldier on not to sojourn with you
Life in the air not as bottled with air...dp

//Hope, pain, truth, hate, in declaration·

Hope

An empty shell alive with possibility

A trig to the beautified trick of belief
The filler of cracks to disappointment
The main source to liven up a soul,

Pain

The reality that stems from status quo

The blow of hurt that we all go through
The true compass of what next to be
The reminder that not all will go our way,

Truth

The seed of where you are to where to go

The reason why you are not what you want
The revealer of scars scarfed by laughter
A definer to the wish your dream is shaped,

Hate

The result common of all things gone wrong

The root of comparison on age to success
The innate enemy raging against self efforts
An energy destructive to our nature,

In declaration

I will share better my pain with wisdom

I will give hope a chance in my seasons
I will speak the riddance of hate in my life
I am the only truth to the powerful riddle I are...dp
 

//storm cradle plays·

The time of my life on a freeze
everything I knew now on a lens
Days making me commit in ease
as I walk the path on freelance
Telling my story a chilling breeze
that none get if standing on fence,

Learning me now becomes genuine
given how interested you are in me,

Testing my patience a far better story
breaking my ego a staple I embrace
Your message out for me a new Tory
flipping sides 'gainst you my praise
All odds written in books read awry
hugs from life I receive a bite to ace,

Knowing me now more to your favour
seeing your number of likes naming me,

What's your aim with using my name
impressed I'm not knowing your start
You finding pleasure deserves no same
pushed plain tales of rhetoric in part
Lessing you up my alley a mode tame
kisses from nature a caress to my art,

Leading me a smart move to the witty
hearing how you play cradle in storms,

The man you are half the one I am
the propaganda you spread a noun
The claims you make raving my clam
the regression you are a dayi clown
The fame you're after a worse I M
the tool you've become a verb to crown,

Crazy me sticking it out for my people
showing what corporateship is above...dp

//bedark self·

Little they do know about me

less of them I wish in thought
They say they know the real me
but why can't they ask you that
for only you and him knows me,

The lives I led a reel of havoc
crying out for a sole unlike yous
The only hope for joy is in lock
you surrounding me brings no use
best you be out to clear my block,

Your presence reek sickly sweet
the rot of your smiles bad to hone
Your sight a common foe in quit
truth be cold I won't bite your bone
for deceiving my guard a knocked wit,

Small time words uttered in talk
a build up to the chain you knot
I'm no fool no expert for this mock
but your tries a trial error to blot
go back to them you ain't got me not,

Little they say about me a bless
the sparks they lit favoured me big
More they hid escaped in their mess
asking thyselves which hole to dig
so they cover their wrongs with press,

I know not of you but why after me
almost right but how you're off a havoc
Playing a molotov on self not so sweet
best you stop and give me a tag talk
and pray my story will be your bless,

I can't be myself 'cause I failed in self
won't be myself after I bailed thine self
Lived in like of love for hate on myself
nothing I touch stays same after oneself
time now I rid self of all that bedark self...dp

//Never mind·

I heard that stars do fall

Asking myself if it's out of harm
or just their time to just go down,

Seen memories created and fade
Thinking of self where it leaves me
as I'm meant to be a forgettable subject,

Walked into the rainbow alone
Worried coming out with us many
but told never how it'll be like outside,

Gave love to everyone who cared
Today not getting back what I planted
and life suddenly what I never pictured,

Laughed at witty jokes from you
Wisdom whispered it'll be forever
now alone in the cold of your absence,

Did everything to please you
Sweeping views of theirs for us
for you to leave me below your shadow,

Never mind my thoughts of regret
Tears down written your name cried
cos reality finally said you'd return never...dp

//Academic hobo·

Education is the key they said

life with it promised to be better
Time spent away from friends
told as paving a brighter tomorrow,

All ideals pointed to smooth rides
mind filled with new wealth I built
Many nights fighting deviled sleep
deeper into words, digits and lines,

Burnt brains from primary til tertiary
gowned and capped with hope sold
Glossy paper they named my pride
back l looked with gratitude abound,

Armed with knowledge in my hand
day l knew 'twas just info acquired
Reality now job experience I lacked
a history in practice I can never buy,

The future gloom from where I stand
years of learning reduced to pressure
My today worse than a man on street
fallen victim to statistics I chose not,

Life of a new dawn brewing my hate
the books I read now used against me
The pain I'm in not of my own doing
parents part of the depression machinery,

Now every street I step attracting looks
I'm now a danger to the progressed
My time wasted in years I inned blind
if only I listened to my heart from then,

What use am I to the concept I live
why thrash my emotions not flesh?
Things I hear and see tearing inside
joined a club never thought I'll make,

Where I'm at no dignity to harbor
how hard I'm done, dying everyday
Being an academic hobo a nightmare
slaying slanders by papered earners...dp

//War not a winner· 

Pure dark intentions never lie

the brightness from them clear
bad good when known from start,

Interest lost a naked treasure
the ruling elite feared by peace
as escaped danger a hell to please,

Ready or not, war not a winner
egos that dance atop sickly fear
a sign of weakness by power fools,

Happy days a birthmark gone
freedom lensed in awoken eyes
for starting over a soon gone then,

Is it them or us in the wrong?
metalloids melted for armoury
repurposed value destroying worth,

Truth trapped in false packages
new now an order of soul torture
reality a vote gone astray both ways,

Whom to turn to a void flagged
suddenly a voice of reason mute
and hope taking a route to no regain,

What's relevant in a war, I ask myself

only the cost of unaffordable rebuild

or maybe that's the actual point to it...dp

//Your love for me·

Watching the golden sunset alone

Thinking how with you it would've been
Many things to do in too little time
'Cause time away from you a sentence,

In you I found my assertion
In you lost something over nothing
For you can't go anywhere else
And everywhere is where you're found,

Truth be the element I find joy in

And you are that good thing for me

Finding it difficult to play afar

'Cause time with you worth more,

From the moments you give me

Appreciating the feeling it wears

Your love so hard to be without 

And that's why I never want any other,

Hope you come back earlier

Once again be wrapped around you

Days are cold idled here all alone

'Cause your love for me so real...dp

//Circumstances·

Those documented mornings gave no response

What seemed okay to the heart was no promise
Many in my book were fighting over my gains
Their love for money said a lot without words
Time with them a wasteful lesson only I sees
Realizing how bad they are over the good I gave,

My days were lived with profits out my hands
What I started so hard alone now a pain to me
My spirit long longed for freedom from all this
The life I led never been of nourish to my being
People surrounding me resolved to selling me
The highest bidder bought me to the last breath,

My establishment snatched my shadows alternately
From the waters I bathed, took away my happiness
Knew then nothing for me was left to live for anyway
No friend no family only conniving soul takers abound
Life in this lane a silent deflator of one's liveliness
A hollow shell it'll leave to your lead of self switch-off,

What today had turned me into, a total opposite
Those who used to be here now far for my reach
And like Buju said about circumstances, I'm there
The me of now paying prices too costly to afford
My attitude towards life and opportunity a twist
Never minded your game for my fall until now...dp

//Low rainbowed hill·

It's not everyone who enjoys it
For it's not an everyday thing
Hope all over my wishes I feel
Lucky me seeing life spring again,

Been long working hard on it
Time now I grow my own wings
Fly over the low rainbowed hill
Hide my tears in highs of gains,

The world I roam in not your fit
Gave me tons of reasons for bling
But days ago had me crave refills
Left me dry working your lanes,

Today a brand new day I'm all lit
Pop the samples to my flashy rings
Nice life problems I want to deal
Down low be hybrid as we feign...dp

//Fresh bloomed meadow·

Bathing in the showers of disguise

Rainfalls soothing my empty hope
How I wish to be filled with highs
Lift my spirit in aura of your hope,

Been long trying for a better answer
Life givings shading my outcomes
How tough it gets a test to answer
Never thought I'd be here for crumbs,

Feeding off leftovers from the masters
With my tongue clean tables for some more
My shame a variety of fun to the masters
Tears down my cheek a load to celebrate,

Hating myself for the hate my family gives
Asking myself what type a root am I
Looking on at every other fail I registered
Disappointment secured in their future I am,

Keeping my head up a no show for them
Depressants holding my joys hostage
This battle a loft to my emotional gate
Ain't enough whatever I try for them,

Day will come and soon I'll be free
Been long crawling under your shadows
Time no longer allowing me for free
Dip into me stay a fresh bloomed meadow,

Useless to you I am useful to my creator
My clan a careless tribe I can't care for
Day of my leaving a lease to be greater
Thanks through you I'll remain cared for...dp

//To the fallen·
They left behind their lives of mistakes
And moving on is you to forgive yours
Over the rainbow their souls are found
Around us lingers your troubled spirit
They're gone and passed to that side
Where me and you will know only then,

Their moons a guide to your rising stars
Darkness of moments in losses you feel
Happied are they who watch over you
For without them life not a same refresh
Time together worse apart now you know
And but holding on to memories captured,

They gave their best in serve of their time
Now celebrate the best they were to you
Their days a lifetime stuck in your minds
Thanks to mother nature they were yours
Left with wrongs to love their rights
Hope they rest in eternal peace...dp

//I may be gone·
I may be gone today to you
But truth is, I've long been gone
The memories I've had with you all
Made chapters enough in my book,

I may be gone physically to you
But, in spirit still here with you
Do come to visit me at my home
For there's plenty still to talk about,

I may be gone in your eyes
But in your minds, a mental tatoo
My mark is left in my joy, Paballo
Look at my smile, get my answer,

I may be gone and out of space
But worry not my friends and family
Watching over you now my job
Enough about me, shalang gabotse...dp

_Leshiathupa Vincent Ledwaba

//Widgeting upsetter·
The colour of pain a dark hue collar
seeing seas of misery bulked in tears
How happiness failed a hailed loss
making me cry for all those years
that life stole in favour of my sadness,

My outlook a different light of bolder
time now boxed in perspex of history
Allowing you back a reverse to toss
obvious we not in same space I'm sorry
and rife indecency a waver to your mess,

Your anger a stellar misfortune folder
that's so far a cheer to your inventory
All making locked peers see my flaws
waking my senses giving no sense in awry
as I make way for egos that're worse,

Day by day I live just to see me older
widgeting towards my ailed treasury
Now my tomorrow a upsetter of lows
what you planned a case of mad glory
judging by how you pinch my weakness...dp

 

//Stacks of mills·

Am I feeling good or just the mood?
this merried aura so good it's healing
Been long doing ups and downs and still
nothing comes close to this final deal,

People surrounding me all on my bill
daily fun now a cost with all to my grill
Life of highfliers not easy it's ill too deep
can't find myself atop this lonely hill,

This life I'm on now a pill to my aches
thinking best I seal this new beginning
Glad and grateful for the trill I coined
time now I take a back seat and chill,

Why I left my family behind not my will
them chose to free me to turn my wheel
But all that while saw me empty my till
attention from nobodies an emotional peel,

Festive moments lit my pain in silent kill
cheers showered my ego with high skill
Love got me lost in lust I couldn't steal
everyday blinded by bare skin to feel,  

Today woke up to survival from your reel
broke in spirit but heavy loaded for a spill
How you scruffed my neck in every meal
a sign this game got you stacks of mills...dp

//Looking for love·

Her face a true reflection of contentment
her smile a statement of things going right,

When will I ever be like how she feels?

when will it be that I find real love?
Even if it be just once but be happy
tired of cheering from the seat of wish,

Been long looking for that one for my heart

someone to love me for who I truly am,

Heard everyone has that special one for them

but wonder everyday where mine is hidden
Or is it maybe I don’t walk too close to them?
or be that I’m just not ready to fall as yet?

Love clearly knows not a heart like mine

for I should by now be calling out their name,

My pain a roll over in the scrolls of sensuality

learning me to accept love is not for everyone
Love an idea of what could be if it wasn’t me
a feeling of joy expressed by one for another,

But why can’t it be for me to experience?
the phenomenon that others are experiencing?...dp
 

//Stiletto queen·

My eyes separated you from the rest
The dress on your frame an eye fest
Saying much a sellout for my type
Watching you type, a statement;

A figure so perfect from the foyer
Your power walk a perfect transaction
So ready to acquire your beauty
wish you're ready for my advancement;

Head to stiletto a pitch balanced afinery
Seen never a fine packaged sole as you
Many a front office lack such appeal
Your surreal pose an assertion to front...dp
 

//Beautiful Rose·

It all starts with your thawed mornings
How thorny and trimmed you are to touch
Lost in scents of your found ooze petals
So humbling how grounded you are to earth’s mound,

Mother Nature really took her time on you
A serene flower of grace I love in behold
You, the symbol of love the world over
Never seen such power of beauty on any flower,

Glory I know I got by bowing before you
In my element beauty I see out of carved sight
Real love mated to struck luck of true love
Please say I can pick and leave with you for keeps,

Your beauty got me doff like a dry cough
Simple stem wrapped up in sprite colours
So wowing how whipple I am towards you
Oh beautiful Rose, pierce me with charisma….dp

//When time’s up·  

Just by the way things are said
clear to me we’ve reached our end
How respect is now wearing shorts
vivid we and you are officially done,

Tried dusting off the dense tension

but time and again you rekindle it
Tired it’s true of forcing ourselves on you
time now I admit to your loud message,

Sad it’s going to rip deep when alone

glad I did my part turning you around
What we now are come our step out
a responsibility left solely to you,

Pain of separation a cold steamer

happiness stolen in spot limelight
Shine taken back for the next deserving
business with you a past to remember,

All things ‘you’ to get a new touch

thanks for the miles you mined with us
Going on without you won’t be the same
triumphs without you a new experience,

Your positives a glory to busk for

your negatives a rust we’ll cut officially
Been obvious you no longer belonged
‘cause when time’s up, you detach...dp

//Lost to me·

Took me long wishing for you with me
wanting you taught me true patience
Skip to now allover again in wish for you
after a period with you turned clock back,

 

How did it happen in the first place
after having worked so hard to have you
Guess I just never cherished you enough
had I remembered your value to me,

The happiness that you came and left with
a lit candle covered with a tight sealed box
Now longing for your lume presence more
letting you go a mistake to my ego I now know,

Feeling empty been a thing of the past
and now a new reality known like never before
Your smile, your voice, your way of doing things
all stuck endlessly in my heavily pinned head,

My space from you killing me slow paced
our distance a mute to my happiness
Sorry I had you but failed you good, thanks
seeing that you’re here but there in please,

A signal for possible retake a big welcome

this time won’t play the arrogant hero I been
If be back won’t make you revisit this past
being lost to me a sorry loss to you for us...dp 

//Awoke blessing· 

Typed half a page and on still
nothing to mind of sense I read
This time of my life a gloom patch
reflected in the lines I punch out,
 

Hyped sessions of my soul a bill
getting me right a hefty price paid
Thinking of all the stations I passed
asking myself if it really was worth,
 

Wiped seasons with lyrical reasons
a content I never once liked hearing
Throwing shades to my rate latched
pimped out like I’m a nymph stout,
 

Riped ranges of reserves I walked
a peel to my swollen mind prints
Licking your thoughts a sad stretch
to the awoke blessing I’m to creation...dp 

//Touch a pain·

He never got the chance to say a word
the solution was not with him a victim
Fingers pointed at him done a criminal
harsh attacks gave way to reason in it
Name drag in mud a casual punishment
a man will never amount to anything to them,

Whom to blame when lead is of same?
why explain if already painted as one?
Truth from him a defense to his wrong
all stones thrown his way unbearable
Since when did screaming mean abuse?
Why not ask first before they conclude?

He now knows his touch inflicts pain
his face fits the description of abuser
However he tries staying out of trouble
circumstances keeps putting him back in
Being a man a stigma he can't wash away
his look a burden of anger to his existence...dp 

//Peniaphobia eclipse·

Desperation in the eye of a family man
a sight of regret I never wish for me
His stomach grumbling to no end
a reminder that life is not same for us,

The pain of a child's cry of hunger
a pierce to the core of even a hardened heart
The look of a helpless father in tears
a bad taste of how bitter poverty is,

Who can step into his shoes for a day
to relieve him just but only this once
For him life knows no joy but struggle
if possible let him experience happiness,

Casualties of politics of the stomach
a reality unaccountable for those responsible
Stepping outside the damage I'm seeing
a curse for the family a man was born into,

Dense poverty surrounding my every side
a fear of choices I wrongly not wish for
His situation a degrader of any pride left
now am a man scarred by peniaphobia eclipse,

My nightmare a comfort he had settled in
his day an hour to reflect on my outcomes
Sad a thing what levels of life can mean
it's true life not mimick dreams always...dp 

//Freedom·

Deep above my inner heights
Freedom of being still questioned
Is it because of my inner child
I'm so longing to reach me?
Lower to my spirit I connect
Freedom of my being in caption
Is my soul free in this cage
Or oppressor got me still in?

Freedom, freedom
Is it too much that I ask?
Is it because it's me? /x2

Higher atop my winners' rights
Freedom to be real still questioned
Thoughts that I feel running wild
'Cause of wanting to be me
Up in arms I stand to be correct
Freedom I got worth no mention
Leaving me in darkened cave
For depression got best in me

Freedom, freedom
Is it too much that I ask?
Is it because it's me? /x2

Freedom, give me freedom (give me) /x4...dp 

//Was But Just a Tyro·

Never waited for his time to come
So manly in stature he self felt
His shine still in its early hours
Pity how soonest he pat his back
One step out at once he forgot
With self praise clouding his view,

Whistling in cheer at his every inning
Deeper and slipper he got into darkness
With his cheerleaders applauding loud
His ego morphed out of check
Into the fray I got to reel him in
Point out he was but just a tyro...dp 

//Cos you're my friend·
 
When day starts you call on me
In day ends we recall memories made
Being around you a good feeling
Cos you're my friend,

Growing old together a golden wish
Growing each other a statutory obligation
Seeing you always a happy moment
Cos you're my friend...dp 

//I Luv U Because·

It's easy to do so to my heart
It's the best thing to do honestly
I don't know what's better than u
I don't want to be without u,

Because,

Ur name the safest thing to recall
Being next to u a joy to my life
Ur simplicity the only complexity I know
Being with u makes me feel luvd,

Lord God knows how sweet it is to love
It's u that I credit my every thoughts to
U r the only one that matters to me
U, who learnt me how to luv passionately...dp 

//You, boss·

Ready or not all day on my phone
tiring hearing his voice all day,

Yes or no my line I fence in defence
sobering yells seaming my line,

Had to watch his watch as he prode
never thought I'd watch his watch soon,

How he controls, the corridors echoes
being here a nightmare he controls,

A term for me will come to his surprise
and my plot will come to his neutrality,

Our workplace a space he settles scores
day now he settles this thick heavy aura,

Damn, this man a menace to progress
slowly coming to progress with regress,

Been long jamming to plaps of your plop
time has come we tell you it's been long,

Done waking up to heartache headaches
done waking up to reality of you as boss...dp 

//For your eyes only·

I'm smitten by your dark chocolate skin
By your smile and  your plated hair
So charmed by your body figurine
Can't express how taken aback I am,

Your eyes carries a glimmer of fantasy
Making me fall apart every blink my way
I'm so in love I'm afraid it makes me weak
Words failing me to say it to you,

I know it is no ideal situation for you
Sorry I keep forcing you with me into it
Why is love so painful to the beholder?
But'll fight to keep your imprint in my mind,

Your bareness the reason you're my target
So emotionally brimming with affection
Wanting me inside your warm tight chamber
Don't want to sleep another week outside of you,

I love you whole, less your more but as all
Give me you even if love me sparingly
Long understood I can have you to me
For love a natural cause resourced for ones like you...dp 

//Samplifed gorry·

Trying to ditch the bait I see
Simplicity never been samplified
Maybe it is because of me
Your sad tale needs to be rectified
Said I'm sorry for all the glory
But none took it to head,

The passion I hoarded from here
An experience I can't put to words,
Painting moments without fear
Clear we never saw the same ads
This place a change to my story
How now I'm in your head,

Chorus of my life a mile to tone
Heavy on you it's easy to read
Your hate on me from the bone
Careful I don't catch the lead
Heard it'll break your gorry
Thanks I heed to my head...dp 

//Love denied·

Picking up the pieces a mess to collect
Packing all my flaws a recollection of sort
Pride calling my mistakes a context misquoted
Truth be told I was wrong to start with,

What I feel a fear that feature to mind
Simple thing of happiness turned out wrong
Asking myself if it's worth pursuing this happiness
Seeing them all seeming to never approve,

Trying to please all a dent of pain to bear
Family a man's pillar but now a former definition
Ready to be in touch with my feelings I thought
But laws of humankind not saying yes to me,

This space I'm in a terrible place to play in
How can I settle if not afforded my peace
Words of wisdom teething to me "trade in"
My heart crying out loud I can't hold my ease,

Loving another has never been so hard I tell you
Can't compare the barrier to anything before
Why is it so hard for others to accept it
And forever respect the truth of another's heart desires...dp 

//You·

Like a ripe early summer's fruit
A glance at you a future to behold
Real beauty on a mortal in simulcast
Your stance a reminder of a creasy statue,

I'm in love deep I can't hide away it's true
Every sight of you a norm to celebrate
Having you around a pulse to a heart
Intimacy flowing out like river Jordan,

Your presence a breeze I can't contend
A figure so serene I must confess
Letters of alphabet fail me to express
Shocking vibes I'm swimming in now...dp 

//My epilogue to your prologue·

The eastern wind conferenced the south
Giving daybreak anthology of dreams
Him and you not a mold by any bye,

Cosmic rays a glacier face falling slow
Love a permanent goitre to a hissing heart
Marvelous how your yearning is drawn,

Careful be in the act of your deeds
Obvious your mind long crossed over
Simple times now owed to soft life,

Passion unguarded by any guides
Roaming lust a beast lost to mist
Dancing to the rhythm known to none,

Anyway the blow swept away currents
In the air board smelled never your scent
A clear sign only you and I meant to be...dp

//Life learned from me·

Rhyme and reason not a voice to feed on
language of rule a jargon balanced in con
People of the light a psy living knell clan
looking at shadows right into their dern
How believable it sounds non of their look
sending a message across just to get a hook,

Truth emulator your reality out of the deed
big bang egos winning over in lead
Sad thing be the magic created right in wrong
leaving feelings in feedback mode to long
Trust not an issue I rely on for your loyalty
since you too not a sipper for my penalty,

Power porn a wah wah flick I give to life

only a ritual orgy mate path out its tife

Fuckebythenavele the sliced gynocrat macho lege
ripping my fuccerham of phallocratic knowledge
Sniffing gifblaar tiffin a priap exapt for me
'cause true in bit, life learned from me...dp

//Life smoked away·

Teardrop out my eye witness not of blame
Happy belated bringing luster to no same
Sentencing my sorrow a birthright frame
That'll add lustre to the heyday of fame
Building sandcastles on the edge of shame
Same time reeling in comfort of my aim,

Day of rand a bit of shock to lesser soles
Say what you want about it and get out
May the force of unity be instilled in all us
Way to my heart a path only you can chart
Hey, how pathetic it is to give up your own
Pay attention to be in love with you early after,

The rot in your anger unfashionable to seed
Wonder who'll root it out successfully soon
The sharpness of your tone a pissed on marvel
Under this dark cloud hovers a sensible meed
The nod we find justifies what I feel in tune
Miling that tear a sign you don't know sight of a gavel,

Backdrop of your moan a lullaby in jail
Full blown cry a rhetorical soundtrack to bail
Perdo name madre a murmur in low wail
Regret realized a better outcome than fail
Hopes I had a lyrical content to wax my tale
A messed up opportunity I smoked up for sale...dp 

//Unexpected gift, unexpected time·

Fear crawling into the winter of my life

A glory of tomorrows gone by yesterday
People who came in never cared out
How I pair my reasons to a season dried
Dear rufflings of my late hours to my life
Making me a crime scene cleaner of yester may
So mitigating the way your eyes seered out
Everytime I rowed their emotions tried,

Pain found, lie beneath veneers of smiles
Cheering to the innermost feelings I know
Secretly harboring thoughts provoking truth
Evident my days within the league are numbered
My writing a codec to least of your smiles
That but a sleep stealer to the night you know
So refreshing why you never dream in truth
Because these lines unlike yours,  numbered,

Just when suicide seemed my only reality channel
Came you to rescue my earlier quick exit
Words out your mouth a story to tell every aspirant
Giving up a date I won't fix to my success
The love I received a courtesy to call a channel
Lessons learned an exploration I can't hexit
The growth in me a lifetime goal that left me inspirant
Grateful I recouped my chances for access,

Finish your start and I'll restart my ending
Time lost only gained in recount of stolen thoughts
Your unexpected gift a verse to an unexpected time
That creates a dis-ease to the kind mind
So, sleep away the troubles to your ending
Lie awake if needs be to fuse your blown thoughts
For my uniqueness a lift to the shine of your time
And truth be told I'm not the one you'll brave to mind...dp 

//Gorgeous·

Your lusty suggestive demeanor a mockery to the birth control elective
Thy smooth skin creeping into the heart like a tipper to a tripping executive
Seen no vast beauty in one perfection of a sole where Iove played no role
My missile of punch line attacks on a glitch mode thanks to your pitch
Smiled never like this in a while 'cause of abundant beauty raunching my day course
Clear to me life of a man just got touched in a way none has done afore so dear
Please tell me where you've been all along you gentle mare I can't diss
Hope you aren't in my space for tease only to leave me crazed 'thout a kiss,

With you it's true I'm spoilt for choice when it comes to real issues to voice
Matters of my craft experiencing a latter of joy only felt by select few in drafts
I love you girl it's obvious I can't hold back my thinking about you, gorgeous
I'm told you're the only remedy for this wasted mess of a man in cold emendy
Having you a blasted wave of blessing I can't fake for the sake of dusted past
You're so lovable it's no excuse I recuse myself from reaching to your touchables
Wanting to taste but the cake ain't ready for the faint hearted I heard it raised
My love for you an anarchy to the eyes that are full of Faramaki...dp 

//Nvr b the saym·

Tym I heard is essential, with it what can I do
With waste so much in my midst
Looking into tymlyns, noting what to do
Lyf will nvr b the saym at least,

Lyk a candle that lit, blazing the nyt away
Soul searching my mood swings in lay
All names n faces I see, acing my space as I pray
Lyf can nvr b the saym they say,

Writing on the wall, crying to ur fall
Separating pains I feel no gain
Words taking own toll, should've done the call
For lyf I know, nvr b the saym again...dp 

 //Luv buffer·

I tried to create myself a love buffer
Seeing that me and u are still afar
Being with u made me feel tuffer
Even though deep inside I still suffer
How we act a bow to incrimination
Now every foul experience a culmination
Never heard I'm to clone ur inspiration
Clever had l toned down ur temptation
An author of pain I am to ur shame
Pity I caught trouble train just for fame
Easy writing digits in the air with a cane
Lazy rhyme spitting I can't call it sane
Have to hide my own so u can show urs
Niggas tripping over own lyrical grofs
So much power surround me everywhere
Feeling like I'm solo but never go alone.

Hate a featured tame of the wicked soul
Rate my future lane n truth serve u cold
Homies got me gon til the 1st of Dec
Wonder who them been end of Nov
Still grinding mills of cents 2 make rands
Talking bout evil deals that I sign in kind
Never thot I b that typa brother in bands
Life saw me deeping self in2 hell unblind
Now rolling in my shade burning a Str8lyna
Day after day raking in heaps of 2tyma
Lost my time chasing after hood flakes
But look at me now ddwebb'd in ur lake...dp

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